So here I am, blogging again. LOL. I guess this is a good release for me before I explode from insanity. I think if every therapist told their patient to blog their feelings, they would feel better. But that's just me. Writing is therapeutic.
An update on Carmen. She is now home and doing amazing. She came home yesterday (which is great because I cleaned the house on Sunday!), full of smiles and energy. You'd never have guessed she just had an operation. Carmen is such a strong woman, she just bounces back from whatever, stronger than ever. So now we're just waiting on the biopsy report on the mass they removed. We have to change some eating habits around the house, which is going to be torture for me because I love my cheeses, breads, and meat. But I think that's something we'll sit down and discuss this weekend.
So I came to a conclusion the other night. I will tell Danny as soon as I see him. I made that vow to God and my parents. So putting myself in that situation, I can't break that vow. Besides, my dad said if I didn't tell him, he'd either a) tell him himself, or b) he doesn't want to hear the subject again until I say something. EVIL!!! So I'm going to pray hard for the right words to come, and tell him. It's the best thing to do and I think maybe my heart will feel a little lighter. Even if he's not ready for a "serious" relationship, just hearing him say he feels the same about me would be a relief. Because at least I have that hope that something will come of it in the future. I'm not going to push anything, just put it out on the table how I feel, I'm here for him no matter what, and I'll wait for him (that is if he says he likes me too). I'm not going to even try and think about him saying he doesn't like me...because that wouldn't be positive thinking, now would it?
Ok. So that's enough blogging for the moment. It's 10am, and I have to putz around for an hour before getting ready for work. I finished a new poem, which I'm excited about, and heading off to post on myspace and facebook. :)
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It's the power of positive thinking. Put it out into the universe and it'll come back to you. THE SECRET!!
ReplyDeleteWhoa, so clearly somethings have happened since we spoke last because I feel left behind.